Currently in my favorite spot in my crib. Over looking the mountains. Having a blisful sunrise reflecting over the spotted arms I have. Feeling the morning wind and a whisper of hopeful tomorrows.
Let me share whats on my mind while currently listening to OPM. Yes. You read it right. Aside from edm. Ive been drowning myself with OPM lately. Overly dramatic week coinciding love month.
NP: halik sa hangin. I dont know. The song is all about regrets. Its all about wrong decisions and about just moving on from making wrong choices in life.
I guess in life. There are a lot of choices. A lot of possibilities. What if i do this, what will be the end result? What if i dont? Again. Endless end results by making a certain choice. Thats the beauty of life. You cant see what lies ahead unless you make the brave choice. The final move.
Yet, life goes on for us to correct all the wrong choices we have made. Its another beauty of it. Its a process of moving on. Moving forward. And the process of having opportunities and choices starts all over again. Its a cycle. Its running again and again and again.
I have plans of traveling to Bantayan Island a week from now. This time. Alone. Though i have been traveling a lot alone. This will be the first time that i will be alone in the entire trip. From going there, staying and going back. Most of the time, i just travel alone but will often times meet some old friends when I get to a certain place. But this time. I plan to just be alone. No plans of meeting other friends. No plans of bringing anyone. No plans of meeting anyone. For now at least.
Listening to this song. I can think of a few people. One of which is Miguel. I was happy with him. But we was gone too soon. Its endless regrets i will forever carry.
Sometimes. All I want is just to be happy. Being alone is sad. Having someone might not be bad after all.
Though I have some friends to be with. I guess having someone to grow old with is a bit different. And having that someone is just too impossible. Not now. Not ever.
Im a kind of guy that is hopeless romatic. I believe in "spark". I dont want to just settle for the purpose of settling. I want to be with the person who sees me beyond what others see. I believe in mutual understanding. Relationship for me is a two way process.
The last time I really felt inlove. I got HIV. I guess im that into that person. I guess i ruined my life for believing too much in love.
I wish reality is just like what i see in movies. That traveling would soon heal a broken heart.
I wish i never knew what love is. I wish I never really felt the pain. I wish finding love is as easy as 1,2,3. I wish for everything to just be over. I wish.
-Z
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