Last thursday night was the time I had my social life back. For a few hours at least.
Spent time with childhood friends in 6100 after work. It has been a while since we last bonded. We weren't complete but it was worth the time off from my boring routine back home.
After Singapore. I went back to my old work-house routine and it made me feel bored more than ever. And worst. My depression came back for some reason.
I had a very meaningful talk with them. Esp with M, P and H. We stayed until around past 5:30am just talking about my issues. At first I felt very uncomfortable since i dont really want to be egocentric. But I don't have a choice. They knew something was going one.
All the while H and S thought it was about my lovelife since my prev blog was about Mr Corp Guy. But i guess it was something more.
Its the feeling of quarterlife crisis.
I had to listen to their stories. Had to listen to what they are also going through. They made me realize that Ive accomplished so much at my age already. They made me realize that ending my life is not the solution to everything and that more than that, there is indeed more to life. They shared the same sentiments as mine. But they all handled it very well. Kudos to them!
Now. Everytime i think about my own situation. I would always go back to that moment when all they did was to tell me things ive never heard before. Things that made me feel worthy of Life itself. That im not a waste. That im somebody great.
With that little gesture they made out of their way. They made an impact to me that night. I guess all I need was just someone so real to really tell me what im worth. I am forever thankful for them.
Earlier today I was supposed to go back. But for some reason I feel like just staying home and rest.
Other than that. Let me share to you that im on this dating site called Grindr.
Had some very nice convos with some people. But I still dont know. All I know is that this wouldn't last for sure. Will blog about it soon.
-Z
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