23 And Looking Forward

I've been recently hooked with Positive my TV5. Its like a teleserye where the main subject is all about having HIV. You can seach it in youtube. Or subscribe to TV5 Positive. 

Im already 23 and based from whats happening around me. People get married. People get engaged. People have babies. It gets me thinking. 

If you happen to read my blog. You would probably know by now that i have this little support group in twitter with PLHIV. I once asked someone from that small community his age. He replied 37. He's been diagnosed quite a while now. I asked him back if he has a family of his own. He told me he lives alone and his parents would normally just drop by from time to time. 

I paused. I imagned myself. What would I be doing 10 years from now? I started to think. And it boils down to one dream of mine. To have a family of my own. 

I may have not told anyone about this. But i dream of having a wife. And 2 kids named Zach Daniel Lim and Nicole Cailah Lim. 

Like any other guy out there. I wish to find Her. In His time. Thinking that im already 23. It saddens me that i may not stay for long. But if God would allow. I wish to find her. Settle down and be the best father ever. 

With that in mind. Comes great dilemma. Who would accept a guy like me? A guy with HIV. It would complicate more. Having a baby and all that. I dont know if its possible nor if anyone have done it. But one thing is for sure. That girl would just be one hell of a badass to accept a guy like me. 

Its very far from reality. But its not bad to have a dream right? 

I may not be sure of a lot of things for now. But one thing i know. I do not want to live all by myself for the rest of my remaining life. 

I recommend you watch the Positive Series of TV5. It moved me. It changed a lot of how i see my life. 

I see life as a one time opportunity. With hiv or none.  We should live every moment of it. Try to look at the clock. No one could make it tick backwards. Lets make the most of what little time we have. With hiv or none. Lets make known to everyone everything we feel for them. Lets make every moment count. Again. With hiv or none. Lets not waste every tick of that clock. 

-zach

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