Where Am I after getting tested?

So whats next for me after being diagnosed with HIV? Its been a week since I found out I was positive. Its a good thing I think that im asymptomatic. 

Asymptomatic HIV infection is phase in which the immune system in someone with HIV slowly deteriorates, but the person has no symptoms. How long this phase lasts depends on how quickly the HIV virus copies itself, and how the person's genes affects the way the body handles the virus.

Aside from the skin rash. I feel okay. Although from 64 kilos im now down to 50 and going down every single month. I can't imagine how skinny I am now. Its like im in highschool again. 

Dec 20 will be my schedule for my CD4 test. Since CD4 here in Cebu is very limited. It comes in schedule. Unless you want to pay around 10k for the cd4 alone in Chong Hua Hospital. 

I'll be going home for Christmas and I am planning to tell my friends back home to have more support group. I still don't know how they would react to it though. But again, I have to do this. 

I can't imagine how God sustained me the entire week. Yes there were countless cries, numerous whys, but i just have to stand firm with my FAITH in Him. I still think about it everyday. Almost every minute actually. But i keep on reminding myself that there is more to life than HIV. I won't let this ruin my life. 

Like you, i also have a lot of plans. To travel, to have a stable business, to inspire others. A lot of each. And thinking how HIV work sometimes is not helping. I dont want to wake up one day with all the sickness again. 

What kept me well and healthy is my relationship with God. At the time that my thoughts were already filled with possiblities of me having HIV, was the time i offered everything to God. It was the time that I had my most intimate moments with Him. Yes, living a Christian life with HIV is full of persecutions. But i always claim to this verse : 

If being sick would bring Him more glory. Then God's will be done.

I am still not okay. No matter how I try to forget things, its still not okay. But rather than dwell on those things. Id rather do more productive by reaching out to others who have the same problem as mine. 

Reach me at iamlivingbyfaith2013@yahoo.com.ph God Bless You! :)