That 3am Conversation

I have finally opened up everything i want to share with my friends last night. Not in every details. But just a glimpse of whats normally on my mind- Fam Business, Health, Family relationship, Future plans and all that. 

Went with M & S last night to watch some show and had some late night walk on the way home. They stayed in my room for the night. We slept around 3am just catching up with everything that is happening. M&S are my mentors. Not perfect but always there when i need them. We may have lapses but i know thry are my valued friends from the very start. I was thankful for the experience last night. All my thoughts were finally spoken. Everything finally was released. From what was going on to the things that are still happening. 

I couldnt thank them enough for spending the night with me. Little gestures means so much! 

Since earlier today i was late at work. I had to catch my breathe working with a lot of things. Good thing the business earlier was doing good despite of a slight downfall from last weeks sale due to some local festivities. Hoping to get back on track this week. 

So what else is going on? 

I have a canker sore. One in the tongue and the other one is just inside my mouth. Left side corner. I honestly dont know how to describe it. But its the first time that im bothered by this. It maybe because of stress or just part of my degrading health. 

Went to meet some friends earlier as well. And im glad they noticed how much weight ive gained since the last time. 

Baby steps and we will get there. 

I also noticed that my arms are getting better. Not totally but i can see some results. 

Im thankful to God for giving me the opportunity to travel, to feel good about myself again, to share my thoughts, to be a friend for some people. I know im not perfect and that there are still a lot of things to be done in my life but im taking everyday one day at a time. 

So the odd thing happened earlier as well. If you read my prev blog. "A" actually messaged me. Indirectly asking me to go out. Basically, it wasnt a question if i want to come. It was more of a "letting me know" that they're going out. 

Although i really find him nice and ideally perfect. The feeling was not the same as before. And im actually thankful. No expectations. No assumptions. Its better that way. Not closing the doors for possibilities. But not giving it a deeper meaning as well. I guess thats how being busy can do to you. 

Now im a little feverish. Still not able to eat well coz of my canker sore. But praying that this is nothing serious. 

Everyday im thankful for "one more day" not always perfect but a reason to reallt be thankful for. 

-Z